With Love, Thelms

Hi everyone and anyone. Is anybody still here?

It’s been a while since I’ve actually sat down and written out my thoughts. Shared what I’m thinking or life experiences that I’ve seen those I love experience. I haven’t written a single thought in a while.

Which is very unlike me because at my core I love to write. After all, it’s my favorite way to express, to share. It’s how I learned to be vulnerable best.

For sometime, I tried to understand why I hadn’t in so long. Why every time I wanted to write I’d get stuck or I just couldn’t. I’d beat myself up for it and slip further and further away from you guys and myself.

Had I forgotten how to do so?

Was I becoming a recluse?

Had I lost what felt like was my personal Midas touch?

& then it hit me… HARD.

I guess you could say I stepped away to move forward.

& in most situations, contrary to popular belief —— stepping away is vital. It’s absolutely necessary sometimes.

From people who are intent on misunderstanding you and making a mockery of your internal trials.

From things that no longer serve you in any capacity.

From experiences that make you feel worse off then you did before diving deep into said experience.

From the toxic thoughts you may carry —— the thoughts that prevent you from speaking up when you’re hurt. Those ones that have you believing you needed anyone’s approval to be unabashedly your most true self. Of course we can never forget the thoughts that make us question our self worth or contemplate why we’ve been dealt the cards we have for too long.

Yes.

Stepping away and moving forward is necessary for survival.

For the maintenance of the mind and for internal AND external health.

If you’re a writer at heart or someone who struggles with letting people in then you can understand this plight, this battle.

Are you dramatic in the way you make these thought provoking statements —— maybe. However, is it in any way to be dramatic or because you’re starved for attention? Hell no, and don’t let a foolish soul intent on misunderstanding you make you feel otherwise.

Those blanket statements are for that single moment that you feel you’re suffocating —— on all these thoughts and can’t figure out how to get it out to one person. So you write because at your core it’s how you learned, hell we as writers learned to be vulnerable best.

So I guess I’m just trying to say that I stepped away, so I could move forward.

I’m taking back control though.

I’ve stepped back long enough that I am comfortably able to move forward.

So much has happened with me and to me since we last chatted.

I can’t wait to catch you up.

Till Wednesday (because if I didn’t mention, we’re back to regularly scheduled programming tribe. New blog posts Mon, Wed, Friday).

& by the way, in case I forgot to mention; I missed y’all so freaking much.

With Love,

Thelms