With Love, Thelms

It was almost love, I swear it was…It was almost the kind of love that you fight for and put above all else. It could have been the dreamiest part of heaven and the most electrifying nightmare. The type that keeps you up at night smiling and the kind that makes you crazy. So crazy. The kind that leaves you restless, but eases your mind like the breeze that passes through the beach. It’s the kind that makes you not just want the other person, but crave them. I need you kind of love. I can’t be without you for too long because it would make me crazy kind of love. It was almost that kind of love. The I’m bored, so let’s chat kind of love. The one that makes you consider playing hooky knowing you have all these responsibilities kind of love. Stay up late on FaceTime to fall asleep and wake up to hear you breathing silently, type of love. Then I end up wanting to wake up next to you so I wake up early to come see you and fall asleep at your place. That kind of love is what it almost was. It was almost love. It could have been the type you yearn for when you’re having a bad day. You need me, I need you… I’m your girl, you’re my boo kinda bae. I want to cry, but you always make me smile kind of love. It’s the “you make my days baby” and never forget the “I love you’s” daily. I say I hate you, you say you love me kind of love. After an argument let’s kiss and makeup kind of love, isn’t that what we’re all fighting for?

BUT…

Almost love isn’t what you envision when you’re craving the real thing the other person never sees is missing. They never understand how bad you want y’alls love thing to work. Instead all they do is find ways to make you hurt. Forget the hope, the wishes, and the time you put into it. They don’t care baby girl, it’s just constant dismissing. That’s why it’s called an almost love, it’s not supposed to change you in ways you’re proud of.

xo