A BIRTHDAY GIRL’S THOUGHTS

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Hi guys! Happy November 12th! I may or may not be being cheeky LOL, but today is a holiday and should be treated as such. Well it is forever in my eyes because today’s my birthday.

Your girl is one year older and pleased to be a part of the Scorpio gang.

Waking up this morning my mind was filled with all kinds of things. I guess you can attribute it to my birthday being a time where I do a lot of thinking and reflecting.

Is that only a me thing or is that just the thing to do on birthdays?

My mind runs rampant with thoughts of all I want to be, where I want to go (both figuratively and literally), who I want to show up as, and the things I want to take hold of in this new circle around the Sun.

Know this though. One of my first thoughts is to praise God always. I wake up with gratitude, thankful that by God’s Grace I’m alive to see another birthday. Understanding the weight of those sentiments more than you know, given today’s climate. The world is such a scary place and to be allowed by His Mercy to see another day let alone, another birthday?! It doesn’t ever go over my head how blessed I am.

I also wade in gratitude to my parents for bringing me into this world and despite threats (following bad behavior in my younger years), not taking me out of it LOL.

In any case — I feel the weight of responsibility I’m meant to carry for myself in a new year.

Responsibility to be:

Kind to myself

Patient with myself

Honest with myself

Safe with myself

Forgiving of myself & potential missteps (vowing to always get back on track)

Accountable with myself

Kind to the people in my life

& so forth.

I commit to the responsibility I owe myself to be and show up as my best self in this new year.

In the same token, I also reflect and reminisce on the last year of my life. This last year taught me so much. I experienced a few things that fortified and molded my outlook on people & experiences. I traveled a lot and even went on a solo trip which Thelma of yesteryear would never have done (I’m still so shellshocked and proud of myself). I stepped away and found that in doing so, I could finally move forward. I let go of people that were a disservice to how I should be treated and the high value I should hold of myself.

There’s something to be said about the beauty of reflection. It reminds you of all you have done and been for yourself even when times were hard.

I also take the time out on my birthday to be thoughtful and thank the vessel that is my body. Oh how she’s held me down when I didn’t prioritize doing so. Oh how she kept going when I had CoVID and my lungs felt like I was at the end. The way she is able to think critically when it matters most. Let’s not forget how she keeps me nourished, strong, and fearless — always ready to face what physical forces come against me.

Yeah, you’d be right to assume that I am thankful for the vessel that is my body, my mind.

Le’sigh.

A birthday girl’s thoughts man.

They are a storm of perfect chaos and settled feelings. Happy freaking Birthday to me.

But hey.

To a birthday girl’s thoughts turning into actionable steps used to achieve my dream life destined by God,

Thelms